Thursday, May 20, 2010

Testamonials Quantum Breakthrough 4

"This weekend was amazing. I am grateful for getting to witness that many HUGE breakthroughs!!

Testamonials Quantum Breakthrough 4

A brief summary told of what would occur in the coming days. Was it longing or just pure curiosity that gravitated me there? Solely time would tell. Wandering into the structure, the lights were dimmed and soothing music could be heard leaving the speakers at the front of the room. Perspiration was dripping from my hands. Fear of what would happen next filled the air like a morning fog. My stomach turned inside out at the unknown. A familiar voice spoke my name and my shoulders relaxed immediately. I unexpectedly felt more comfortable. I came to the realization that I was in this place because I wanted to be there and nothing would keep me from experiencing what I had come for. The next few days would answer questions I thought I did not have the answers for. Little did I know at the time that the answers laid within me.
After two people had entered the room relaxation came over me. Suddenly the fear in them created a sense of comfort. Across from me they slouched - mysteriously imagining what would take place next. It was time to begin. Walking to the front of the room we dragged a collection of chairs that once were placed perfectly around four tables. In the center of the room we gathered each chair to create a circle. The leader’s voice spoke softly asking us to position ourselves with an open posture, hands placed lightly on our knees and legs not crossed. His soothing voice spoke again explaining further what would engage us in the days to come together. My comprehension slowly slipped away - no longer a garment keeping me reserved.
“Who wants to go first?” The sound of his voice amplified the room- walls rumbling in the silence. Glued to the chair beneath me, I sat motionless. Fear had overcome me; the slightest movement would jerk me from the comfort of my seat to the front of the room. I was not prepared. A gasp of air escaped my lips as a girl stood up and headed to the front of the room. The entire conversation she held with him was a mere a blur. Time had passed so quickly and it was suddenly my turn to go to the front of the room.
Standing before them my hands slouched to my sides reaching near my hips - slowly wrapping around my back. This stance hid my sweaty palms, but I could not hide myself. He began by asking the first question. The question has faded, lost in my memory, but the answers flooded out of me. Word after word, name after name, and fear after fear. Every feeling that held me silent slipped away as my hands reached in front of me. No longer was I hiding I was telling my story to ears that waited to hear each syllable leave my lips.
I was speaking about events that occurred when I was too young to understand their meaning. A person I was supposed to trust had taken advantage of me. His words spoke of power and strength that my pure mind knew nothing about. Paralyzed beyond my control I had forced all the feelings deep in the recesses that lay beneath my soul-lost for no one to find. With each new person introduced to me, I remained distant, unable to tell my story. Allowing them to take advantage of me all I wanted was to please them, to see joy in their eyes at what I had done. Me, not anyone else, me. I longed for someone to desire my assistance in completing them. I longed for this because I myself desired the same.
Why had I allowed them to drive me down a path that made me feel incomplete without their approval? The answer arrived at my feet. A gift left on the doorstep leading me to a life worth living. Voices that once shouted instructions as if they were a lifeline, slowly fell from the depths of my soul, no longer trapped inside me. With each cold teardrop hugging my cheeks, fearful to fall, came the confidence I had lacked for so long in my short life.
Suddenly I knew that the only focus in my life should be pleasing me. Why do we spend most of our lives living under the assumption that since our parents gave us life that we must repay them in some way? Or that since a person helped us in a time of need that we owe them our life? Life is a gift. The only thing we can do it be thankful and cherish it. If we spend our lives aching to be something that we are not then what life are we living? The answer escaped from the depths of me. All of these thoughts were foreign; they must have come from a different source. This is where I was mistaken. One question spoken from a former stranger had unexpectedly given me the chance to say how I felt without pushing on me his own thoughts. I was free.
We can choose the people we have in our lives. We choose who we work for, who we want to be friends with, who spend the rest of our lives with. We do not pick however whose family we enter into. That is a gift we are given without our choosing. In this room full of people who had grown in a short while to know me, every little detail I kept inside escaped like a strong gust of wind. I realized that family will always be family but the definition can change in the blink of an eye.
From a young age I was taught that my mother brought me into this world she could take me out faster than I could say birth. I lived by this motto, tricking myself into believing that I had to delight her, make her proud. Continuously, time and time again I was inadequate. It was in this structure with my new friends that I finally felt worthwhile. Why did my own mother not make me feel this way? It is often in the face across from you, staring deeply into your eyes, whispering that you are selfish, apprehensive, and living wrong, that is finding these faults in themselves.
I finished the sessions in the days to follow, however no other subject we spoke of reached me so deeply. Until recently I was not living my life. I was lost in a sea of faces keeping my true self hidden. My life is full of joy now. I do not select to keep people in my life that treat me disrespectfully, why should I keep them just because they are family? I choose who I define as family. The answer was not lost within me anymore. Free to be true to myself I left those same doors that had once appeared so terrifying opened in front of me. My eyes burned at the light which shown and I knew that I was no longer in the dark.

Testamonials Quantum Breakthrough 4

My experience of the workshop was a complete transformation in my life. I have been doing this now for 2 years and i really enjoy serving others in the process of serving myself. I learned that alot of things where holding me back in my life and to breakthrough those barriers and "let go" of all the shit my life is truly amazing. Yes I still have some struggles, if you are aware of those you can handle them right away instead of dragging it on throughout your life. Who wants to carry around all that baggage with you for your life. I know I dont. I also learned that its ok to be angry be in the moment and let the anger come out and again handle it then and not stay angry all day, it serves no purpose!! My life now I can say is truly amazing and I feel that everyone gets to experience that!! I am looking forward to continuing this for the rest of my life!! Cant wait for more Quantum Breakthroughs!!

Testamonials Quantum Breakthrough 4

Class was very interesting on a number of points. While I am very rooted in my ways, I learned that being more spontaneous and vulnerable with my thoughts, feelings, emotions and actions can be like a breath of fresh air. I have always been a very driven person when it comes to school, work and my goals. But, I always put my personal feelings on the back burner - as I thought meeting my goals would make me truly happy. Since class, I have made an effort to make time for things in life that I want to do, not things I thought I had to do. Taking time off of work, traveling, being with friends and most importantly being with my girlfriend.

When class ended, I told myself that I am going to open up - not be afraid to let people know who I really am - to have a positive attitude - I get to go to work on Monday morning, not I have to go to work on Monday morning... I learned that the energy I was putting out had a tremendous impact on my relationships and work environment. Simply starting the day off on a positive note dramatically influences my attitude for that particular day.

My personal relationships have been effected the most, and in a very positive way. In my past relationships, I was always a little reserved - afraid to truly let go - afraid to get hurt. After class, I put an end to that. I know I have broken some hearts in the past, and I know that I have had my heart broken as well. Enough was enough. I was never going to truly be happy unless I was happy with myself. So, I did some soul searching and realized I really don't have it too bad... I have realized professional success that makes me great money, I am a descent looking man, and I have a huge heart that any girl would love to have. I didn't treat myself like I was worthy, like I didn't deserve to be happy. I always had to look for the bigger, better deal. That is not fair, not to myself and not to others. The energy I was putting off attracted that same type of person - not stable... I don't blame any of them for what I went through, it wasn't their fault. It was mine and I took ownership of that and am happy I experienced those things. As if I didn't go through those events, I wouldn't be where I am today. And I'm not in too bad of a place right now.

Needless to say, with a few tweaks of my attitude and a new perspective on life, guess what happened? I met someone and am wildly in love with her! Our relationship happened so quickly, I wasn't even looking for anyone and then, boom! She comes into my life. I have found an equal, someone who works hard, but enjoys herself very much. Someone who breaks me out of my shell - spontaneous. The balance my life desperately needed. She told me she loved me before I told her! We have only been together for a few months, but it feels like I have known her for so much longer. I mean I took this past Friday afternoon off of work for no reason other than that she didn't have to work, so we could be together! One of the best days of our entire relationship. We got a couples massage, had a great lunch, went to a movie and then had a bbq at her sisters house. Nothing spectacular, but something I would have never done in the past because I missed some work. I did something that I wanted to do - and it felt amazing!

Well, this is about as detailed as I can get through an e-mail. I hope my opinions help others.

Quantum Breakthrough 4 Testamonials

"My experience of the Quantum Breakthrough weekend in March 2010 totally beat my expectations!
In under 3 days I was reconnected with myself and the results have continued since. I am now aware of the potential in everyone close to me due to the fact that I am, simply, open to hear them and willing to interact authentically with them. Huge changes have occured in me and the quality of my life has expanded beyond my wildest dreams. It can be a total life changing experience if you let it!!"

Testamonials for Quantum Brakthrough 4

Kris, hope everything is going great with you.  Here's my feedback regarding the workshop. 

I had an absolutely wonderful experience. Thought is was great to be in such a big group, that united together and formed a very tight group. Caring, sharing, and being real without fear. See the walls come tumbling down, being stretched beyond comfort to break free and feel the real release. You were wonderfully successful in creating an atmosphere of love, trust and regard for the inner being. It made it possible to really face facts, and be blessed by the input of everyone, revealing the truth, the naked truth. The use of aspects as the dancing was so' effective. Music is the language of the soul, and even the most unwilling couldn't resist moving through, drawn to breaking free.

Personally it was the most freeing experience I had ever achieved. Has nothing to do with being a dancer in past, I have never danced as I did that weekend. Has just been a result of where my life has been taking me the last years. Step by step, and the timing was perfect. I could let my hair down literally, no holding back. Connecting with my most inner, releasing that! I now feel free to really be expressive in every way, where ever. Not super conscious of myself anymore. I have felt trapped inside myself for decades, as a result of criticism that literally trapped and immobilized me, prevented me from at times really living my life! Being confident, and not being able to express it is a curse. A curse now broken!!! I feel a new empowerment as never before. It's ok, to be me, free to be me. It's great to be vulnerable. So great. I have decided to open my heart to love (the romantic) kind. The other was no problem, I could love people even if rejected I was fine, BUT the romantic, where real vulnerability comes to play, I was not prepared to go at all, ever again. Until now. I am astonished how when you make that space it is filled. Everything in my life is falling into place, has been the last few years as I have been doing things to allow it, but there was a breakthrough after the workshop. I am ready to let my kids go. Except of course for my youngest who is still my responsibility, but even there seeing him move a little more out on his own. I have felt trapped over the last few years, after the devastating events we went through, to be there for my kids, especially for my daughter, and thus allowed the situation to rule my life. I turned down amazing career opportunities in Chicago etc. just because of that.

Decided in Dec. to take the step, break out of the corporate trap, do what I have to do. Getting certified, write my book, the first of many, (a process started 5 years ago), now with a deadline of 17 June 2010. As I am writing the material to others pending, are also jotted down. I am working hard on my international personal trainer certification. Have successfully completed some certification, working in other courses as well. Take up the career I left behind 13 years ago. Plan to have certification done by July 2010. My Green Card is finally being filed. I'll be able to travel!!!! Picking up my life where I left of many, many years ago.
Planning my first visit back to SA after 13 years of absence. On my return I will be landing in my new home. Where that is, still to be revealed.

The workshop, has blessed my in the way it confirmed everything I have already been believing, the direction I have been heading. Given me, new friends, caring friends and divine connections
Kris, thanks to and Judah, and everyone else who made this possible. It set FEAR FLEEING!!!

Testamonials from Quantum Breakthrough 4

For me I had a great experience at the workshop.  I had a great 
breakthrough whit Jim, I thought he was the problem when it was really
me never giving him a chance. I, however, don't think changed too
much. I think I am a little more out spoken, but not considerably
different. I can tell that when I am at work I talk more not only
with my fellow employees but also with customers. I find myself
having more conversations and not really caring what others may
think. So I think the class was a great experience for me. I had a
great time